What You Ate Today.
Well today technically didn't start yet for me so I'll write what I ate from 6am yesterday morning until about an hour ago. I woke up for class and had Rice Chex (my favorite breakfast cereal in the world, besides honeycomb). Then I went to drawing class and had a few Cheese-Its between that class and Art History. Came back and had lunch with Maria that consisted of a small slice of pizza, noodles, and a cookie. Went back to my dorm to take a nap and then went to get dinner at the grille at about 5:30pm and got a chicken sandwich and curly fries (great dinner, I know. >.<)And I had a little bit of chocolate peanut butter ice cream about an hour ago which was at about 1 in the morning. Needless to say, I don't eat very healthy, but I do in fact eat, which is more than I have been eating since October of last year.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Day Three.
Your Parents.
I love my parents. They divorced when I was about 6 years old I think, no one ever told me, nor do I really care to ask. I was a mistake, and I don't care too much for my childhood really. I always got treated unfairly amongst other children. I have lived with my mom for over 13 years now, so I've never lived with a male person in my life except for when my boyfriend comes to stay with me. I haven't seen my dad in over 9 years either. He lives over 600 miles away from me; and he doesn't make it appoint to ever come and try and see me. He always wants me to go there. But... I haven't gotten a birthday or Christmas gift from him in over 10 years; why should I waste money to go see him when he can't even send me anything? That's how I see it, and I know it's mean and shit, but I can't do something for him when he hasn't done anything for me in years. I do miss him, however, a lot. I talk to him on the phone occasionally. We've gotten closer in the past few years then we ever were in our lives, which I guess can be a good thing. I just need to basically... meet my father. I feel like when I see him; it will be like meeting him for the first time in my life since I really don't remember him at all. I wish I did though. I love him. Now my mom on the other hand.. I've been living with her forever; and we get on each others nerves way too much. I just recently moved out and to college, and let me tell you, a tremendous weight has been lifted off my shoulders, you have no fucking idea. Don't get me wrong, I love her too, but for once in my life I feel independent and things are never going to be the same when I move back home after college or go home for summers. I don't know what to expect when I go home now for the first time that I've been away... So much freedom here and then I'll be basically tied to the bed when I go back for summers... I'm not sure I can go back to that again. I wish I had enough to move out and be on my own finally. One day soon though, I'm hoping I can do that, maybe move in with my best friend after college like we're planning and start a life and work. My mom is super strict, and she shouldn't be... but she is. And I guess that's what makes me not want to go home ever.
I love my parents. They divorced when I was about 6 years old I think, no one ever told me, nor do I really care to ask. I was a mistake, and I don't care too much for my childhood really. I always got treated unfairly amongst other children. I have lived with my mom for over 13 years now, so I've never lived with a male person in my life except for when my boyfriend comes to stay with me. I haven't seen my dad in over 9 years either. He lives over 600 miles away from me; and he doesn't make it appoint to ever come and try and see me. He always wants me to go there. But... I haven't gotten a birthday or Christmas gift from him in over 10 years; why should I waste money to go see him when he can't even send me anything? That's how I see it, and I know it's mean and shit, but I can't do something for him when he hasn't done anything for me in years. I do miss him, however, a lot. I talk to him on the phone occasionally. We've gotten closer in the past few years then we ever were in our lives, which I guess can be a good thing. I just need to basically... meet my father. I feel like when I see him; it will be like meeting him for the first time in my life since I really don't remember him at all. I wish I did though. I love him. Now my mom on the other hand.. I've been living with her forever; and we get on each others nerves way too much. I just recently moved out and to college, and let me tell you, a tremendous weight has been lifted off my shoulders, you have no fucking idea. Don't get me wrong, I love her too, but for once in my life I feel independent and things are never going to be the same when I move back home after college or go home for summers. I don't know what to expect when I go home now for the first time that I've been away... So much freedom here and then I'll be basically tied to the bed when I go back for summers... I'm not sure I can go back to that again. I wish I had enough to move out and be on my own finally. One day soon though, I'm hoping I can do that, maybe move in with my best friend after college like we're planning and start a life and work. My mom is super strict, and she shouldn't be... but she is. And I guess that's what makes me not want to go home ever.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Day Two.
Your First Love.
Well, let’s see.
My first true love was asshole. I can't believe I'm saying this but honestly, I've only said I love you to two people; Asshole and Jimmy. I don't take love lightly. If you're going to say it, MEAN IT. After what's recently happened to me, I don't know how I still have a heart left, but somehow, Jimmy's managed to pick me up off my feet and make me feel alive again...
Well, let’s see.
My first true love was asshole. I can't believe I'm saying this but honestly, I've only said I love you to two people; Asshole and Jimmy. I don't take love lightly. If you're going to say it, MEAN IT. After what's recently happened to me, I don't know how I still have a heart left, but somehow, Jimmy's managed to pick me up off my feet and make me feel alive again...
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Day One.
Introduce Yourself.
I'm known as Ravyn. Koral if you know me in person. I consider myself a very intellectual individual. I know I'm smart sometimes, and I'm not afraid to show that I am. I'm in college currently, a Junior if you'd like to know the year. I have a 3.4 GPA. I go to school for Photography and Design. I model for a few websites. I'm considering Suicide Girls in the near future. I know I have a good body, in some aspect of the idea. I'm bisexual; get over it. I have a fabulous boyfriend, and I couldn't ask for anyone better, I don't want anyone else. You'll find I tend to write alot, random things at best. I'm currently posting excerpts of my book THATS (The Heart And The Shape) that I think most people would enjoy reading. I started writing when I was 13 and manic depressive. My early writings are very confidential and very unique, sad, depressing, sickening and sometimes just too much for me to even look back and read. I keep them under lock and key back home in my room, I don't want anyone to find them. I can not live without music. I can not live without being a social butterfly. I need people around me. If not, I will go into convulsions and start having panic attacks when I don't want to. I myself am a very interesting girl. I hope you think so too.
THE HEART AND THE SHAPE.
A NOVEL, BY KAYERAVYN [SMC] 2006-2011
Day1: Darklings.
Darklings. What are Darklings? Well, we are figments of your imagination. The little tiny voice that’s inside your head telling you whether or not to live or die; that’s us. We live off emotions. We hunger for more. We are unlike any other voice. Don’t listen to us, we’ll probably kill you. If you want to listen to us, however, we speak the truth. We are able to take your soul, turn it inside out, and read you like a book. Welcome to The Heart and The Shape; where your dreams can come alive.
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